Letter to My Second-Born.

Dear Adelynne,

As I’m writing this, you’re napping away safely in my belly. You know nothing but warmth, safety and love. As your mother, I pray that’s all you’ll ever know.

This has been a very trying pregnancy. It has been full of obstacles, pain and some complications. I wouldn’t change a thing. I have felt your every movement since just months after you were created. I know you like no one ever will. I can feel your strength, your stubbornness and your playful nature. I cannot wait to see who you become. Gosh, the emotion I feel as I write this is nearly too much to bear!

In just a couple short weeks, you will make your appearance in this crazy, turbulent, scary world. We will finally meet face-to-face. You will be placed on my chest and both of our lives will change forever. I will admit, I am terrified, but your daddy is strong and your sister is loving. We’ve got this.

For nearly a year now, I’ve done everything with you. I have laughed until I cried, cried until I fell asleep; I have loved and I have worried. I have laughed over your kicks and jabs, and feisty personality, I have cried over the silliest things thinkable, and I have worried more than anyone could possibly imagine. I think I’ve worried since the day I saw that positive pregnancy test…and I will continue to do so for every moment you are alive.

I worry something will happen before I ever meet you. I worry I don’t eat the right foods, get enough sleep, get too much sleep. I worry I yell too much and you won’t like me. I worry I’ll never be the mommy you need. I worry you won’t be healthy or happy. I could go on forever.

The world is a difficult place, even more so as a woman. You will be judged for everything you do and everything you do not. You may never feel like you fit in, and that’s okay. I pray that you will be yourself. I pray you will be strong and confident in your beliefs. I pray you will stand up for yourself and what you believe in, even if it means going against what makes you fit in to this world. I want you to be happy and full of the good in life. This place is scary, but you need to see past that, into the wonders. Don’t focus on what you don’t have; focus on what beauty surrounds you. Look at the sunrise, the flowers, the stars. Take a deep breath and know that you are beautiful. Don’t let anyone ever convince you otherwise.

When you fall in love, fall in love deeply. And always remember your worth. It’s going to hurt like hell when your heart breaks…it’s going to hurt worse than anything, but know that I am here to hold you, love you and never judge you. You’re going to make some huge mistakes, and I’ll hold your hand, loving you all the same.

Ady, you are perfect. We’ve loved you since the moment you were created. I cannot wait to kiss your tiny toes and give you eskimo kisses. I can’t wait to sing you to sleep while I hold you close and comfort you.

Welcome to our home, where I hope you always feel safe and adored.

Love always and forever,

Mama.

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